I love playlists! Every morning while I get ready, I put my favorite playlist on shuffle and go about my business. It’s just there in the background while I do my hair, my makeup, get dressed, etc. But have you ever accidentally hit the repeat icon and the same song played over and over again…but you were so busy going about your routine that you didn’t even notice? You know what I’m talking about right? We have all done it. Then we finally have this epiphany and think, “Hey, didn’t I just hear this song??” We check and notice, it was the only song playing all along. We were just too preoccupied to even realize it. I know I have even been guilty of singing along with it…over and over without even realizing. What recordings are you playing over and over again in your mind without even realizing you’re doing it?What recordings are you playing over and over again in your mind without even realizing you're doing… Click To Tweet
When I was younger, I had a relative ask me to keep an eye out for someone that was supposed to come by. They needed me to catch them and ask them to call. So I watched for this person. Then, my daughter, who was about 3 at the time, started crying in the next room. So I went to see what was wrong. While I was in there doing what ANY mother would have done when their child cries, the person I was supposed to be watching for came and went quickly. I missed them. So I called the relative up and told them I had missed the person because my daughter needed me. Without any regard for the reason WHY I was distracted and missed the person, the relative said to me, “You’re a failure. You always were a failure and you’ll always be a failure.” I hung up on them and cried. I called my now ex-husband and told him and he went and had words with this relative. But that didn’t fix it. I told my mother about it. That didn’t fix it. And what was worse was…the person never apologized. To this day, nearly 27 years later, I have never received an apology. I forgave them anyway…for me, not for them. But yet, even in forgiving, that statement plays itself in my mind over and over again all the time even when I don’t even realize it. Whenever I try something new, whenever I think about doing something I have never done, whenever I feel like I messed up…I hear those words. It has caused me anxiety and it has caused me pain. And what hurts more is that the person didn’t even care about how it affected me. Whoever said ‘sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me’ certainly had it wrong.Whoever said 'sticks and stones can break my bones but words can never hurt me' certainly had it… Click To Tweet
Many times, you can recover from physical wounds more easily than verbal wounds.
I wish I could say that was the only time this happened, but it wasn’t. This person has said many mean, hurtful things to me over the years. I chose to forgive…again, not for them but for me and for my family. But it didn’t erase the recording. It still plays over and over again. It has songs such as: “She’s prettier than you are”, “You keep gaining weight”, “You’re just not that smart”, and the list continues. This is what my playlist sounds like. Every thing this person has said over the years, every thing anyone has said about me that was hurtful over the years, plays on this playlist. And it plays in the background over and over again, many times without me realizing that it keeps repeating the same song. The song can change from one day to the next, the artist can change from one day to the next, but it is still from the same playlist. But there is another playlist…and it has one artist on it..and God is the One doing the singing,..ABOUT ME!But there is another playlist...and it has one artist on it..and God is the One doing the… Click To Tweet
This playlist is very different. Its lyrics are:
Diane…you are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus (Romans 3:24)
Diane…you have been accepted by Christ (Romans 15:7)
Diane…you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
Diane…you are the righteousness of God in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:21)
Diane…you are chosen, holy and blameless (Ephesians 1:4)
And I could go on and on with the wonderful things God says about me..about us. We, particularly women, often take the negative things we hear and speak about ourselves more to heart than the things God says about us. Our playlist has played the same songs for SO long that they get stuck in our heads. We need to get into the Word more to change what plays. We have the ability to take that negative playlist off repeat. But the first step is paying attention to what song is playing over and over again and then changing it!
Ever get a song stuck in your head? Yeah it’s usually an annoying one too. I used to get Barney songs stuck in my head when my kids were little and I can tell you, that is a special kind of torture. The best way to get that song out of your head is to start singing another one. Start your day with some positive confessions!The best way to get that song out of your head is to start singing another one. Start your day with… Click To Tweet
Find some verses that you can memorize or write down and have near your bedside and start your day with them! Keep some in the notes on your phone so if you hear a bad song playing, replace it with another. Soon, you will have a whole new playlist to replace that old, tired, worn out negative one.
I can’t say I am where I need to be and I can’t say that the hurt isn’t still there. But I CAN say that I am beginning to catch what is playing faster and easier than before through His grace.