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Do you ever feel that you have rebelled against God to the point He wouldn’t want to restore you? Have you ever felt as though you are somehow unworthy of His love? I have been there!! What do you do when you feel you’ve strayed too far, even for God?


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I Rebelled Against God

There was period of a couple of years where I turned my back on my faith. Even though I never stopped believing, I wasn’t walking in it.

I was angry with God for a time because I felt like everything in life was falling apart. Because of this, I was easily led back to a life of being self-serving and focused on fun rather than faith. I felt like God hadn’t been there for me so I wasn’t going to be there for Him.

I went to psychics and got into astrology and all kinds of things to find direction and answers in my life.

The problem was, the answers were there all along. I just didn’t like them! I just wanted to do my thing! It wasn’t that God wasn’t there trying to lead me, I just didn’t like the road He was taking me down. I wanted a super-highway and He had me on an old dirt road!

But through my rebellion, He never stopped calling to me. He never let me go too far from Him. And, He led me to a place where I got on my knees and cried out to Him to show me He was still with me and He did!

Returning Home

I abandoned all that junk immediately and followed Him and committed to following Him no matter what the road was like!

That time I rebelled against God taught me that He IS there with me. It was unmistakable! He never let me get too far from Him! He let me wander just so far but then He drew me back before I could suffer harm.


Have You Rebelled Against God? – He Searches You Out

I love sharing stories of my father. He was truly one of the best people I have ever known and I was blessed to have him, even for a short time. He passed when I was only 21.

One of the things I remember most vividly about my father from childhood was him tucking me into bed each night. He always did this task himself and that was by choice. My dad would read me a story and then tuck me in nice and tight into my bed. He would kiss me on the forehead and tell me goodnight.

Then, as he turned off the light and began to close the door, I would say “Daddy, I’m thirsty. Can I have a glass of water?” He would then go to the kitchen to get me a glass.



Hiding From My Father

While he was gone, I would get out of my bed, a bed he so carefully tucked me into, and I would go to my closet, step inside and shut the door.  My dad would come back into the room with the water and then say “Where is Diane??” and proceed to search EVERYWHERE in my little room!

I would be giggling from inside my hiding place…which I am sure he heard. But he pretended to not know where I was. He would pretend to cry because he couldn’t find me.

Finally, I would jump out of the closet and say “Here I am Daddy!” and he would hug me and say “Oh I was so worried, I couldn’t find you” and then repeat the whole “tucking in” process again.

And he did this every single night! Every night I would hide and every night he would seek me out even though he knew right where I was.



Have You Rebelled Against God? He Knows Where You Are!

Like my father would search for me no matter how many times I would stray from my bed, our loving Shepherd leaves the ninety nine in search of the one who strays.

Matthew 18:12:

What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray? ESV

In this verse the sheep went astray! It wandered from its loving, caring shepherd and the safety of his care! This was not a sheep that conformed or went along with the rest. It ran off and did its own thing. But yet He leaves the ninety nine in search of that one.


You can never stray so far that Jesus cannot seek you, find you and restore you!

He never skimps on His great love for us and He cares for us, even when He knows we will mess up.

He never stops chasing us no matter how many times we hide from Him. God will always search us out time after time after time. He will always bring us back, if we allow Him, and restore us.

He IS our loving father!



Have You Rebelled Against God? – Not Wanting to be Found!

And sometimes we may not want to be found! Sometimes we are in rebellion and feel shame! We feel we have FINALLY gone SO far that even God cannot restore us.

But God is able! He is not only able, He longs for your restoration!!


The Prodigal Son

Luke 15:11-24

“Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

“When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

“The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

“But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.” NIV

You CAN Return!

And He is longing for you right now! If you have rebelled against God it doesn’t mean you cannot return!

The devil will try to keep you in rebellion with lies! He will try to convince you that God is done with you! But these are lies!

If you’ve been feeling Him tugging at your heart, ask Him right now to bring you back in. He is standing at the gate just waiting to open it for you! The Lord is like the father whose prodigal son wandered lost for a time and He is waiting to celebrate your homecoming!


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Diane is a wife and mom, a Jewish believer in Yeshua (Jesus) and yes, a blogger. In addition to owning Worth Beyond Rubies, she also co-owns other sites such as Faithful CEOs which helps Christian bloggers and businesses, Hot Flashy Faith which is a site for women over 40 and everything important to them, and Women of Worth Café another site for Christian women with Bible studies, devotions and the Jewish roots of the faith. Diane lives in BEAUTIFUL Northwestern Connecticut and when she is not blogging, you will find her spending time with her husband and kiddos out on their little mini-farm.

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    What a beautiful picture you paint of your time with your dad. You are very blessed to have had a dad as wonderful and loving as that. I picture Father God that way; kind, gentle, loving, great sense of humor, and never tired of our antics. 🙂

    Jasmine Hewitt

    what a beautiful memory from your childhood! Love it!