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I Quit Everything! – How to Overcome Fear in Life

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“I quit!” It’s not that I ever truly said those words out loud, but they were most certainly the end result of what fear of failure was doing to me. I quit everything! I was so afraid of failing that I would end up quitting before I could actually fail at something. After all, then it was on MY terms! I learned to defeat that fear and you too can learn how to overcome fear in life and live in victory!

An image of a woman with long red hair with her hand on the top of her head and a suitcase in her hand walking down a street and a text overlay that says I Quit! How to Overcome Fear in Life!

I Quit Everything – Was I Really a Failure?

I literally would just quit everything I started!

I would begin projects or businesses or even relationships only, later on, to give up on them. I would just abandon them while in progress and, sometimes, even when they were thriving!

I never seemed to ever finish ANYTHING and I could never understand why that was the case.

It wasn’t that I didn’t enjoy what I was doing. In fact, in most cases I loved what I was doing. But no matter how much enjoyment a project gave me, it would eventually get filed in the archives with every other project I had ever started!

Why? Why could I not ever seem to complete anything?

Some people may look at someone like me and think they are lazy. Maybe they are flaky, maybe unmotivated, maybe selfish.

But it is not any of those things. It is something far deeper; something more hurtful.

You’re a Failure

When I was twenty-four years old, I heard words spoken over the phone that would stay with me decades.

The words cut like a knife and caused scars just as deep as if they came from one. They were words spoken by a very close family member.

[ctt template=”8″ link=”0D13U” via=”yes” ]The words cut like a knife and caused scars just as deep as if they came from one.  They were words spoken by a close family member. [/ctt]

There were some people at the house that day to do a job in the yard. This family member called me on the phone and asked me to try to catch the workers when they were on their way out and ask them to give him a call. This was WAY before cell phones were a thing!

My daughter, who was four years old at the time, was playing in her room and, shortly after I hung up the phone, she began crying. So of course I got up and ran in to see what had happened.

I was doing what any mother would do.

While I was in her room comforting her, the workers had left. It was only a few minutes but I had missed them.

So then I immediately called this relative on the phoneir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=1703b31bc92a96322ea835e465cd1d1f& cb=1543086890348 to tell them I was sorry but my daughter fell and I had to go help her. And that is when he said the words…

“You’re a failure. You always were a failure, you’ll always be a failure”

 

How to Overcome Fear in Life – Realize Words Can Weigh On You Like Stones If You Let Them

Words like those hurt no matter who they come from. But the pain is deeper when it comes from someone that is supposed to love you. The weight of those words can be heavy and they can last a long time; sometimes even forever.

And it was those words that would start a cycle that would culminate in me never finishing things in my life.

I’m a failure.

It started to seep into the core of who I was; a failure. I believed it. After all, it came from someone close to me, someone I trusted. I wore them every day like a weight around my neck. 

It wasn’t just those words by themselves, but the cutting remarks that would come from this person from that point onward. However, the words ‘you’re a failure’ were by far the most damaging because they summed up everything this person would ever make me believe about myself over the years.

I felt, without realizing it, that if I just quit something, if I just walk away from it, then I can’t fail at it. If I give up BEFORE I can fail, then this person can’t be proved right.

It was on MY terms. It was MY choice. Therefore, it wasn’t a failure if I just made my own decision to quit! 

These words didn’t just make me feel like a failure, they created this intense fear that I lived with every day! 

I had to learn to overcome that fear in my life or I would prove him to be right!

An image of the earth and Ephesians 1:4 quoted from ESV

I Quit Everything – A Self-Fulfilling Prophecy

What I didn’t realize was, in my attempt to protect myself from his words, to protect myself from this “prophecyir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=5e90ed910e88482f261fd92a6219ba23& cb=1543087027936” he had spoken over my life (you’ll ALWAYS be a failure), I WAS indeed proving him right.

I WAS failing. It was just that I was choosing it rather than letting it choose me. Every time I had given up on something was a time I failed.

I had let him win by giving up out of FEAR!

[ctt template=”8″ link=”TBO6C” via=”yes” ]I was failing. It was just that I was choosing it rather than letting it choose me. [/ctt]

How to Overcome Fear in Life: Realize it’s a Lie – False Evidence Appearing Real

We all know this acronym for FEAR. It is truly accurate.

What I was facing were these words; nothing more than words. I was giving mere human words the power to hurt me, but worse than that was I was giving them the ability to mold me into someone God never intended me to be.

These words, these lies, carry weight only when you give them more faith than what God’s Word says!

God’s Word should always replace the words of cruel people! God’s Word should always be above what ANYONE says to you!

But I hadn’t learned that yet at that point!

You see, I had actually succeeded in life up until that point. I had always been a good student. I had friends, a beautiful daughter and I had a business that I was working from home at the time that was successful.

It was a lie!

I HADN’T always been a failure! But that lie was about grow to truth.

After about a year of building a successful business, I quit.

I started college, I quit.

I was marriedir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=fcbced7161d0043dff18012b568b9c14& cb=1543087077588, I quit.

I.Just.Quit

I was fearing failure where I had not even experienced it just because this person labeled me!!

Now to clarify, I was not saved yet at the time. That would come later. But I firmly believe the enemy was setting me up to fail at even that way before it happened!

Overcoming Fear of Failure and Rejection

After I was saved I thought I would have the victory! I thought this would all change and that my faith in God would be enough for me to be able to finish what I start! I would finally not feel like a failure because God saysir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=76853004ac3fd18668560299626e0f29& cb=1543087134495

Who I am in Jesus

“..and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority.” Colossians 2:10 NIV

“…even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love…”
Ephesians 1:4 ESV

“Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.”
1 John 4:4 ESV

 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
Philippians 4:13 NIV

But that wasn’t the case! I was still giving more weight to what people said! And that affected my faith and it affected what I thought God must have felt about me too.

I began to feel unaccepted. In other words, I felt like somehow I had slipped under some spiritual VIP rope and snuck in but wasn’t truly supposed to be there. Like somehow I got God on a technicality but wasn’t really wanted even by Him.

[ctt template=”8″ link=”la9J3″ via=”yes” ]I felt like somehow I had slipped under some spiritual VIP rope and snuck in but wasn’t truly supposed to be there. Like somehow I got God on a technicality but wasn’t really wanted. [/ctt]

I feared failure even at my salvation, even though my salvationir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=b917bf8651d726d6cb908a58cd847bf2& cb=1543087168023 had nothing to do with me!

I Quit Everything, Including my Faith!

So I fell awayir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=e523a8fcbd8a5753d789e4260d00fa92& cb=1543087190183 from my relationship with God. I backslid somewhat. I couldn’t even accept that even HE could love me.

Now, I didn’t truly quit. Deep down I still had my faith in Jesusir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=d2c8a0d0d3818d2fecc7146e0a1c6b98& cb=1543087223360. I never walked away from that. But I lacked the relationship. I wouldn’t go to God. I felt like I wasn’t worthy to. My belief in Him was there but I didn’t walk in it. I felt like an outsider. Unwanted. Unaccepted. Uninvitedir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=da46aca871e5f791ddbb7fd9e5a220c6& cb=1543090608457. Because that was how this person had made me feel.

An image of a woman facing away from us with the sun setting off in the distance and her arms up in a V shape toward the sky and 1 John 4:4 quoted from the ESV

I felt like if this family member had this opinion of me, this person who was supposed to care for me, maybe God felt the same way about me. Maybe I just wasn’t good enough for anyone!

I stopped trying to know God deeper because I was afraid He would see me the same way this person did. If I just kept this distance between me and God maybe He wouldn’t notice what a mess I was.

Oh but He notices! And He gives us grace and gives us beauty for ashes.ir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=f44d7318d6671a4403b9546b13e8a763& cb=1543087261342

He saw my mess. He saw my fear. And He saw my loneliness.

Oh, and there was loneliness. I didn’t even feel my Christian sistersir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=db3476d0e6bc762e96e5450cbb43a5f8& cb=1543087289800 wanted to know me.

I still go through that today at times, like somehow they will see I snuck in! So I kept everyone at a distance and only built surface friendships. I tried to be everything to everyone so that people wouldn’t see the failure this person said I was.

So that I would be liked. So that I would be accepted.

[ctt template=”8″ link=”PJBQ4″ via=”yes” ]He saw my mess. He saw my fear. And He saw my loneliness. [/ctt]

But God is bigger than our failures, He is bigger than our mistakes and He is bigger than the lies the enemy tells (sometimes through the mouths of people who are supposed to show us love) and He breaks through those walls we put up. And He can break through your walls too!

How to Overcome Fear in Life

I wish I could sit here and write to you and tell you I had this amazing victory and overcame fear and failure ir?source=bk&t=live31 20&bm id=default&l=ktl&linkId=7aa1405779410bb0fc517852227a0cc1& cb=1543087329181completely, but I didn’t.

I still struggle to believe what God believes about me and it is a daily exercise in the Word to keep reminding myself of who He says I am.

If someone ignores me I automatically go to a place of “I’m not good enough”. It’s a constant struggle to give these thoughts over to God and rebuke the devil and his lies!

THEY ARE ALL LIES! 

He wants me to think that way so I will QUIT! He wants me to think that way so that I never live in the victory Jesus died to give me!

God is working in me to turn around the lies that someone spoke over me but I am not 100% there yet. I am FAR from where I was, but I am not there yet.

But daily I spend time in His Word and daily I remind myself what He says about me. Daily I go to verses that tell me about His love for me.

I am not perfect but I am not a failure either!

I don’t blog to tell you how perfect my life is. Blogging is so I can share my struggles, my pain, my reality! I do this because I hope to be able to show even one person they are not alone!

Being a believer and being a blogger doesn’t mean we have our stuff together. We just share our messes! It means we lean even more on a God who can fix our messes and, in time, help us to see ourselves the way He sees us, not the way the world sees us.

Learning how to overcome fear in life, especially the fear of failure, starts with replacing those old recordings with God’s Word!

I am not a failure! I may fail AT things but that is ok! That is how we improve! That is how we learn and grow! But I am not a failure!

I am not a quitter! Unless God tells me it is time to let go of something, I keep at it! Believe me, I have been tempted more than a few times to quit blogging! The enemy comes in with that comparison game

And yeah, I might have a moment! I might have a day! But I pray and ask God…do YOU want me to stop? And if I don’t get a yes, I keep going.

I am NOT a quitter!

And grace by grace, God is helping me believe that!

What are some ways you have learned to overcome fear in life with God’s Word? Share in the comments!

[ctt template=”8″ link=”d5O9a” via=”yes” ]Being a Christian and being a blogger doesn’t mean we have our stuff together. We just share our messes! [/ctt]

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54 Comments

  1. Hi there

    WhenI was reading…I could almost experience my life story…thanks for sharing…Jesus loves us and has already liberated all of us…acceptance with faith is the key…

    Always meditate on the scriptures

    They are your whole life

    God bless

    Minaalp@gmail.com

  2. Diane, This was beautiful. I’m a self-fulfilling prophet who often lets my fear of failure take over to make sure that I’ve failed.

    1. Isn’t it terrible that we allow the enemy to cause us such fear!? I will be praying for you!!

  3. This is such a true statement Diane: “Being a Christian and being a blogger doesn’t mean we have our stuff together. We just share our messes!” As a Christian blogger we learn to use our experiences to encourage others. Thanks for sharing.

    1. Amen…that is what it is all about…letting others know they are not the only ones!! Hopefully my experiences and the experiences of all of you, my fellow bloggers, can help even one person overcome their fears!!

  4. I certainly can relate to your words here. I believe many of us can. I’m am praising God with you for small victories and trusting Him for more in the future. That’s where I find myself, trusting God to help me one day at a time and asking Him to give me the courage and strength I need again tomorrow. Blessings!

  5. I’m not really sure where to start…

    I guess I’ll just say this post could have been written as a biography of my life. Sure, there are a couple of differences: I got saved as a child and no one’s ever told me I wasn’t good enough (that I can remember).

    Still, I struggle with those same feelings of fear that I’m not good enough, I’m dumb, I’m a fraud that someone – one day – will spot and call me out.

    But I also KNOW those things aren’t true, because I’m not my own. I am a child of the Most High, and He calls me ‘Beloved.’ I am everything I need to be because He’s enough.

    Thank you for writing this post. It’s touched me more than I can say today. I pray you’ll feel God’s love and acceptance more and more each day in your own struggles with that old liar – fear. I’m SO glad I found your post today (at the Grace and Truth linkup). Blessings!

    1. Ashley your comments really touched my heart! Thank you for sharing your own struggle…and for sharing your truth! We can rebuke the enemy’s lies with God’s truth!! We are His and therefore we are good enough!! We will have those thoughts and struggles but we CAN overcome them with His truth!! Thank you again for your comments!!

  6. Diane, words have a way of stinging and staying with us for a very long time, don’t they? They even tend to define who we are. But as you’ve found the enemy is a liar. I’m so glad you’re finding freedom from his grip.

    I love what you said about Christian bloggers — we don’t have it all together but we can share our messes, mistakes and missteps all while pointing others to the One who offers grace!
    Blessings to you!

  7. Hi Diane, I just want to say this post was absolutely beautiful. Whatever you do, don’t quit blogging! You have been given a gift no one can deny. Thank you for your honest transparency. I am saying a prayer for you and Christian women bloggers everywhere right now! Because we all can relate to one degree or another (the comments are proof of that).

    1. Alyson your comment just made my heart so happy and was such a blessing to me today!! Thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement.

  8. My favorite quote from the article, “I still struggle to believe what God believes about me.” I can relate…it takes separating lies from Truth as you pointed out. So encouraging!

  9. Diane this is beautiful and heartwrenching. This describes me too. I believe God is digging deeper into this area for me. He is desiring greater healing and freedom. Thank you for sharing so transparently and tenderly. I needed to hear this today. Love you!

    1. Oh Desiree thank you so much and I am so glad you found it encouraging (even if a little heartwrenching)…so many of us struggle with these issues and I hoped it would help others know they are not alone! Love you sis!!

  10. Beautiful. It resonated deeply within my heart. I lived a similar story for far too long. Praise God for healing and knowing Whose we are!

    Sharing this everywhere!♥

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