I LOVE MAKEUP!
I do…I love it. I am a trained esthetician and makeup artist. I love playing with colors and textures. I love experimenting with it and I love helping people learn to apply it. Makeup is fun! Makeup is awesome!! I have a makeup page on this site because it is fun to play with!!
Well..it’s supposed to be fun. It is supposed to be to enhance your natural beauty! To bring out what is already there with color! Not to hide behind or try to change your appearance. That should never be what makeup is about!! But lately…
Lately, it has felt more like shackles for me.
You see…I realized I started to feel like I NEED it.
I work from home so I don’t leave the house on most days. I finish work, then I work on my blog in one way or another. Then my family begins to arrive home for the day and I get busy on dinner and so on. So most days, I don’t see anyone but my family.
And yet, every morning I feel the need to do my hair and makeup, even when I don’t feel like it. Although I love makeup, there are just some days I want to throw on sweats and pull my hair back and not wear anything on my face. I want to go with the nice, clean-skinned look! And I try! Some days I set out to do just that! I mean, who is going to see me?? The dog?? By the time my husband gets home most of my makeup is worn off anyway so am I doing all this for the dog to look at? No..he looks at me like it didn’t help anyway! He’s a ShiTzu…he’s a bit judgmental.
Yet each time, I end up heading in to my bathroom and applying at least SOME makeup..even if it is just foundation and lipstick. I’m not doing it for anyone else…it is my OWN need.
You see, I initially thought the problem was that I have worn makeup for so many years that I have begun to dislike my appearance without it. No..it was the opposite. I disliked my appearance so much that I began wearing makeup for so many years. I was using it in a way that it wasn’t meant to be used.
It wasn’t the makeup that was the problem. It was the fact that all these years I have used it as an attempt to cover up what I saw as flaws in my appearance. The makeup was simply the cover up for the real problem….my own lack of self worth.The makeup was simply the cover up for the real problem; my own lack of self worth. #proverbs31 Click To Tweet
My face is too pale and red (I have slight rosacea)!
My eyes don’t stand out!
I look old!
I look sick!
The gap in my teeth looks more pronounced!
The list could go on and on! I realized that not only did I not feel beautiful, I disliked ME at the very core! I didn’t think I was good enough so I relied on the one thing I DID like…my ability to apply makeup! It became a crutch. If I attempted to go without it I would walk past a mirror and actually look with disgust at what looked back at me.I realized that not only did I not feel beautiful, I disliked ME at the very core! #proverbs31 Click To Tweet
I told my husband about it. My husband is so amazing…he just doesn’t get it. He sees me as beautiful no matter what. He just couldn’t understand. You see, the gap in my teeth that I hate? He thinks is awesome! He says it is unique to me and it sets me apart from everyone else. He really loves it.
The extra pounds? He loves that too! He doesn’t want me skinny!
I don’t smile in pictures because of the gap in my teeth and because I hate how I look in pictures when I smile. He loves my smile in the same pictures that make me cringe because he sees the beauty in the happiness behind that smile. He sees a wife that is happy! And he loves that!
I see myself looking old..he tells me that I look 35 when I am 51!
I tell him about wanting to go without makeup, he simply says “So don’t wear it.” He doesn’t get it because he thinks I am beautiful no matter what and the very things I hate the most about my appearance, he loves!
The way he sees me, reminds me a lot of how God sees me.
God sees beauty in me, not from outward appearance. He isn’t interested in that. He sees me as beautiful because I am created in His image. He sees me as beautiful because before I was in my mother’s womb, He knew me. He sees me as beautiful because he sees no flaw in me. He loves the very things I see as faults!God sees beauty in me, not from outward appearance. #proverbs31 Click To Tweet
He sees me as beautiful because He is not interested in outward adornment but in a gentle and quiet spirit.
“Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel—rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.” 1 Peter 3:3-4 (NKJV)
Here are some more verses….
You see, God values me and you for the beauty inside of us. We have value because of who HE is, not because of what we look like, what we do for a living, who we know, what car we drive, how expensive our shoes are. He wants me to find my worth and my value in Him and in what His Word says about me, not what my mirror says about me. (See my other post about body image here)I listen to what His Word says about me, not what my mirror says about me. #proverbs31 Click To Tweet
You, my dear sister, are beautiful! You are fearfully and wonderfully made! You were created in the image of God and have His Holy Spirit within you! Let that sink in for a minute!! When you look in the mirror, what you should see looking back is a Princess because your Father is the King of the Universe!You, my dear sister, are beautiful! #beauty #proverbs31 Click To Tweet
So today…I have no makeup on. My best adornment today is a gentle and quiet spirit. It is the crown I wear that gives me beauty…the crown of a child of the King. When His Spirit fills you, you glow with a beauty that the best makeup in the world cannot compare with!It is the crown I wear that gives me beauty...the crown of a child of the King. #beauty #jesus Click To Tweet
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!
And you know what? So am I! Even if the dog doesn’t seem to think so….