When I first started this blog, this site as a whole actually, it was November of 2015. I created it because I had a calling to do so. I discussed this with my husband on a 3 hour trip we were making home to Fort Lauderdale after spending Thanksgiving with family. We went over it in detail and he gave me some great suggestions. I got home, full of excitement, ready to create this ministry that I felt called to…that I felt LED to. I got it all up and running and I was happy with the results. And then, I did nothing. I let it sit. I published it, but I didn’t promote it. I didn’t blog on it. It sat.
If I felt called to do it, I should have had the faith to know God would equip me. Click To Tweet
Why? Why did I do this? Why did I know that I know that I know God wanted me to do this and then go through ALL the work to create it and then..let it sit?
The answer was two-fold. For one, I didn’t have enough confidence in my own ability to write. I had been writing since I was a little girl. Many in my family thought one day I would be a writer. But over time, life got in the way and I stopped writing. I felt that, because I had been so out of practice, I wouldn’t be good at it. I was looking to my own ability vs. looking at God’s ability to work it out through me. If I felt called to do it, I should have had the faith to know God would equip me.
The second reason, and the biggest reason really because I already knew the answer to reason one, was that I didn’t think I was someone that people wanted to learn from. I was a nobody. I was no different than any other woman out there so who was I to assume to try to teach anyone anything? I had no education in theology, no degree in Biblical studies…so who was I? Well, we know where those thoughts were coming from! But I bought into them. I was a nobody! And in the end what it meant was…I was doubting the call in the first place.
What I had to come to terms with was that God uses the plain and ordinary for the extraordinary. And He has done this countless times in scripture. He took a shepherd boy and turned him into a King. He took a grumbling fisherman and made him a leader of the Church. He took a Hebrew who was “dull of speech” and had him lead the people out of Egypt. And most of all, He Himself took the form of an infant…a baby lying in hay in a manger, to set the captives free…to give us eternal salvation! He could have been anything He wanted! But He chose to be plain. He chose to be ordinary. And I think I know why. It is the plain piece of clay that can be most easily molded into something beautiful. And it is the plain and ordinary we can most closely identify with.
Have you ever looked at a lump of clay? It is just that…a lump. It is a formless, plain piece of well…nothingness. But oh…the potential in that piece! The potter then gets his/her hands on it and shapes it and forms it and puts it through the fire to turn it into something useful…something beautiful. It is original because the hands that made it won’t make any two pieces exactly alike. It becomes set, it becomes tougher in the fire…and takes the shape and form the potter imaged in their mind. But the only way to turn it into what the potter wants is to put it through the fire.
I had to go through the fire. I had to go through a period of testing and working out the doubts, the fears, the uncertainties. I had to go through the inner battle between what God was telling me to do and an enemy telling me it couldn’t be done…not by me anyway. I had to finally face my fear and choose to believe what God was telling me instead of the lies the enemy told me. And in November of 2016 I put it out there. I did it in baby steps..even then being afraid to just leap out there. I had some friends look at it first. Then I took it to broader social media and now it is out there for the world to see.
God takes us, as Jeremiah 18 refers to…as a lump of clay…plain, unassuming, without the finished product and he puts us through the fire where we battle our doubts, our fears, the harsh words of critics, the laughter of naysayers…and we come out a beautiful work of art that He can use.
Beautiful woman…you are a beautiful piece of art formed by the hands of God Himself. And like silver, you are refined in the fires of your life. Like that clay you are molded in God’s hands and put through the fire to become His masterpiece. You can do whatever God calls you to do…whether it is to lead a ministry or lead a toddler. Whether you are to teach thousands or teach those in your home. You are a gift that God has handcrafted. So never despise the fires you go through because it is those fires that mold you.You are a gift that God has handcrafted. So never despise the fires you go through because it is… Click To Tweet
INSERT YOUR NAME HERE, you can do ALL things through Christ Who strengthens you. (Philippians 4:13)
He said, “Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does?” declares the LORD. “Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel. (Jeremiah 18:6)